Gabriela. 20. Houston, Tx.
Never good enough. I fuck up a lot.
I. Miss. My. Girlfriend. It’s the holidays and we can’t spend them together :c This fucking sucks. I want her back home in my arms already.
I miss bae. Like really. She needs to come back home to me. Ugggggh, nine more days of this bullshit. I need my baby. I miss her so much it hurts. She has no clue what she does to me. Ugh. This. Is. Fucking. Bullshit. BABY IF YOU SEE THIS I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY MISS YOU AND I NEED YOUR KISSIES. I’m waiting for you gorgeous. Ahh, that is all. :*
I miss having physical contact. I miss being held and little touches and holding hands with someone. Omg, I miss that shit. I miss being able to wrap my arms around someone or having someone to wrap their arms around me. I miss being used as a head rest or a leg rest, you know where you’re sitting next to someone and they just throw their legs over you or they lay their head on your shoulder and then they bury themselves in your neck, OMG THATS MY SHIT MAN. I miss having my back rubbed or scratched and my legs felt up on, I miss being kissed all over and squeezed and loved on. FUCK I JUST WANNA BE LOVED AND APPRECIATED AND BE HAPPY WHY CANT I HAVE ANY OF THAT WHY CANT I BE HAPPY WHAT DID I DO SO WRONG THAT HOLDS ME BACK FROM ANY OF THAT SHIT
I have been single for a while now and have loved every minute of it.
But I miss having someone to cuddle every night, being able to wake up to your beautiful face, the way the light hits your face. I want you to come into my life. We can stay up all night eating popcorn and chocolate, asking...
I miss you. I hate myself so much for still missing you. I wish you missed me the way I miss you.
You've been able to let go, and move on. You've been able to find happiness in others, and in yourself. That’s good, good for you. As for me, well, I’m okay, I've been okay, but there’s just one thing; I still miss you. I miss you so much, because you were my bestest friend. Someone who was special to me, and to my family. You were someone who embraced my flaws and imperfections. Someone who’s seen me at my best and of course, at my worst. Someone who’d drop everything he was doing, to make sure I was okay. Someone who wanted the best for me, the best for my future. Someone who wished me happiness in my life. You were someone who loved me unconditionally. Someone who always made sure I was safe. You were that one person who always kept me going, who always looked into the future. You helped me through some of the toughest of times. Looking back now, nothing was easy due to the situations we were put in, the circumstances we had to accept, and the obstacles we had to face. But through everything, I never wished anything negative to come out of what we shared. I never imagined you turning your back on me. I never thought you’d walk away and not look back, because I was so sure you would forever be, my bestest friend. With all the struggles, I never stopped loving you. The only thing I didn’t want to be, was a burden. As of late, I’ve watched you pretend like you don’t know me, and I’ve done the same, just to save myself from feeling foolish. It still hurts, because you were a big part of my life. Someone I wouldn’t trade for the world. Someone I never saw my life without. But, whatever’s happened, has happened. We’re like strangers with memories.
Would I go back and change things, if I ever had the chance to? A part of me would say yes, because I want you in my life. I miss the happiness you used to bring to me and to my family. I miss everything we shared. But, another part of me would say no, because if you really loved me, you wouldn’t have left me when I needed you most. You wouldn't have let go of what you claimed to be special and the best thing you've ever had. You wouldn’t let go of the one you called your’s ‘forever’. If we were enough for you, you would’ve stayed.
I know this is stupid. I know I shouldn’t be thinking about you, let alone wanting you. But I do, I miss you. I wish you were here. I want to hear your voice, I want to feel your arms around me. I wish you were loving on me, kissing me everywhere, and just making me feel good. Why can’t I get over you? Why do I still want you? Can you just come back please? We’ll have the chance we deserve. I’ll be better, I promise. Just please come back.
I just want somebody to have inappropriately yet deep conversations, and be really cute with. Is that so much to ask for?
I just want a cute girlfriend who i can cuddle with, have lazy weekends with, go on random adventures with, who i can tickle beceause she has the cutest laugh and smile in the world, who i can kiss whenever i want and who i can show of to everyone beceause she’s perfect to me and i love her so much.
Let me love someone!
